Round 12 Confessionals

[Doctor Kenniff]

The Ultimate Fifteen. Twenty have fallen. It is so crazy to think that I have outlasted twenty other people and we are down to the final 15. In a game that started with 35 people that is an amazing accomplishment. I'm feeling great about my position in the game right now. I feel like I'm golden on my current tribe. I pissed off Kourtney and have pretty much shown Mary that I don't give a shit about her really. But I'm in good social standing with Sydney, Colby, Candice, and Alex. That makes me pretty set for the merge. I have a feeling merge may be this round but I am not sure. We have a challenge tomorrow night but no clue if it is individual or tribal yet. I wouldn't mind if it were tribal because I really don't like big merges. I am confident in my standing as I said...but big merges scare me. I would be in good with Chase, Shawna, Judd, Alexis, DD from the other tribe. DD is questionable because I just turned my back on Kourtney basically so she might not like that. But we shall see. Either way...I see myself in a great position. I can rally the misfits and be in a perfectly fine position. Myself, Chase, Shawna, Candice, Colby, Alexis, Vee, Wanda, Alex = 9. Perfect right?

But I am keeping all options open and look forward to seeing what is in store for the near future. Then I can really start planning and pulling stuff together that will really benefit me the most.

[Doctor Kenniff]

So my tribe absolutely sucks in challenges. That was awful. Mary is hopefully the one leaving. I'd be stupid not to worry a little bit but everyone is saying Mary. I still can't help but worry though. Mary is campaigning hard and is trying all avenues. She was trying to put the vote on Alex at first and then switched gears or just decided to try and stir shit up and target Candice/Colby (mostly Colby) to me/Syd. It is a scary thought that she could convince people to do something drastic. Kourtney might want to do something after what we did last round. Colby/Candice...they'll do whatever they feel is best for them. I just hope I've built okay relations with them and everything goes smoothly.

I really hope we merge after this. I was talking with Shawna to ensure her I still want to work with her and Chase. She started bashing Wanda so at least I know she doesn't really like Wanda. Must just be Chase that likes Wanda. I've been trying to talk to Alexis but she keeps ignoring me. I want to ask her if I did something to make her upset.

I need to make sure I'm set up well at the merge. And this time I have to really like pick a side and stick with it until I feel it isn't going to work out. If I feel it will work out for me I'll ride that side to the end. But I gotta be careful. There are a lot of really strong relationships and mine are all weak-strong relationships. Like I'm building some good relations but I don't think any of my "strong" relationships are people that will remain true to me over someone else. That makes them weak-strong relationships if that makes sense.

But really...please merge.