15 [emotional warfare]

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Well you would think this would feel better, but it doesn't. I really like Alexis and the move was anything but personal, even if she thinks otherwise.

Whatever, I feel like every other round this game upsets me in some way and I'm not even sure why at this point. Whatever I just need to keep on playing. I'm still hoping to win and I need to do whatever I can to make it to the end.

:/

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I can't decide between Kim and Shawna... and I won't. Even if it's the death of me in this game. I promised both of them I'd go to the end with them, and they're the only ones I want to be there with.

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This GIF deserves its own post:

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Well last round I pulled off my big move... you know the one I've been trying to pull off for like 8 rounds now, and so I figured that I'd take a step back and vote with my allies for a few rounds. However, none of my allies can agree on a vote!

Miki and Shawna want Sean out.
Kourtney wants Wanda and/or Colby out.
Sydney and Judd want Chase out.
Kim... I'm not really even sure who Kim wants out!
Alex and Judd don't want Sean out.
Candice and Colby apparently want Chase out but part of me thinks that seed was planted by Sydney.

So anyway, this vote's a fucking hot mess. Everyone wants Vee's idol gone, but no one is really willing to vote for her. Miki and Shawna united over wanting to vote Sean, and being pissed off at "people who don't matter" trying to control the vote. Like yeah they may not be included in our long term plans, but we definitely need them now! Miki was putting me through the wringer, saying that since she voted and Alexis and that hurt her game, I have to vote Sean. At least she knows how I feel when I wanted to vote for Alexis. But I never even said I wouldn't vote Sean!

Granted, I'm not particularly thrilled about voting for Sean. I do have a strong alliance with Sean and turning on it this early probably wouldn't help my game too much, but at the same time I need to keep those who I'm going deep in the game with, happy. I also know what the "other side" wants... or at least I think I do.

I know that Sean wants Miki out. Chase wanted Kim out, and kind of wants Sydney out, but is playing the defeatist card. Wanda wants nothing idefk, and Vee just wants to survive.

So anyway, regardless of what happens this round I feel as though I have my finger on the pulse of the game. Soon enough, I'll need to really start considering who I can take to the end and who I can't, though I've already over-committed so I could probably get there without a ton of effort if I let various alliances carry me through. Like I have these current deals going:

Sydney and me
Shawna and me
Judd and me
Kim and me
Kim and Alex and me
Kim and Miki and me
Kourtney, Shawna, Sydney and me

So between Sydney, Shawna, Judd, Kim, Miki, Alex, Kourtney and myself, I can't be voted out if all those people believe me. I obviously can't take them all to the end, but it's looking more and more like the 8 of us are going to be very close to the final 8. That will be really fucking tough when it happens, because every vote onward is going to seem like a betrayal, and then the final tribal council it's going to seem like I didn't do much in the merge. But I really worked hard on paving it to be that way, so we'll see. Ugh, I can't worry about final tribal council yet because chances are I won't make it there. It's so far away and I'm getting cocky already - that never ends well for me. I need to calm that down.

Candice and I discussed the auction prize! Basically I opened it and then sent it to her so we both knew what it was. It was an immunity necklace yay! I kind of plan on voting her out in a round that I have the necklace (we have shared custody) because Rory did that to me kinda, and won! I mean it's certainly not a winning strategy, and I'm not going to like outwardly target Candice, and it's a pretty low blow, but if other people want to vote her out, I can't really stop them. Anyway, I'm getting really fucking tired so I'm going to leave for now. Oh btw I have who got what at the auction!

Alex - nothing
Candice - crate
Chase - nothing
Colby - immunity
Danielle - crowbar
Judd - bankrupt sydney and stole money; challenge advantage
Kim - coconut
Kourtney - nothing
Miki - family visit
Sean - vote peeker
Shawna - burnt sausage
Sydney - bankrupt by judd and immuneW
Wanda -
Vee - advice about a double round coming soon.

Okay passing out will write more tomorrow

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Update!! Apparently Sean got an HII, and Wanda got the idol.

My list was so inaccurate, I'm ashamed! But really though, it's fine. I just need to refocus on this round, which Kim is doing well for me! The plan is:

Tell Sean he's safe and the vote is for Wanda. Vote for Wanda. Tell Vee to idol Wanda. Minority votes for Sean and he leaves with the other idol. This gets rid of two idols for that pesky double vote round that's approaching ever so quickly!

The next step is to feel out Vee for the plan. Will update!

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Sean gave his idol to Judd... I don't understand anything anymore.

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Okay, so I just cast my vote for Wanda because Kim backed out of the plan to blindside Sean. As okay with voting Sean as I would be, since he did not tell me about the idol he won, it would piss off Judd. I'm not necessarily scared of what Judd can do in the game, but I am scared about his emotional warfare and his idol. Especially going into a double vote very soon, I need to be in a good position on all fronts.

I'm definitely going to be vying for immunity if we have a double round next round. If not, it's my turn with the necklace, and I'll be making a deal with Candice so I can use it. I will try my damnedest to protect Candice, but I ultimately need to make sure I'm safe. If there's a double tribal next round then there will be tons of immunity necklaces flying around, so I NEED to be safe. I've covered myself well, but no one can protect themselves from the unpredictability that round would bring.

I told Vee to snapchat me if something changes, and I trust she will. I basically made her think my vote is hers this week, so she can't flip anything on me. I haven't felt particularly in danger this round, but I still need to cover my bases. Ingratiation is a great way to do that.