Round 6 Confessional

[Doctor Kenniff]

I can't believe it is only round 6. The game has felt like there have been more rounds. I guess with the current drama and things getting tougher it has made it seem like we are further along than we really are.

Going into the F22, I am extremely happy about making it this far. I am so grateful to my tribe for winning that challenge last night. They don't know how happy I am with them all. I find my position in the game isn't very good right now. I'm not going to sit here and say I am in a great position. I'm definitely not. I just don't know how to improve my position. I don't think I have any really strong connections. I have pretty strong connections with Rob C and Sydney but I know Sydney has other commitments. I also have my "F2" with Danielle but we have not spoken much the past few rounds except her begging me to vote out Elyse to which I was like OF COURSE. I know she does not have my best intentions at heart and does not intend to stick true to our F2 alliance so I really have to try and figure out what I am going to do to help move myself forward in the game.

The pregame alliances talk has me worried but if I stay on the good side of it I will go a little further. I just don't know how well I would be able to manoeuvre once the numbers get lower. If I changed sides completely I would be joining people I have not spoken to at all in this game and that is not going to be beneficial to me. I know that myself and Rob wouldn't be able to do much damage together either so even though I have a very good relationship with him it is pretty much obsolete game wise. Ugh.

I need to figure something out. Maybe keep getting close to Chase and Shawna. Keep working on getting close to Judd. Judd might end up being a very good alliance partner choice. But he has been pretty defensive when it comes to any of the pregame "attack" posts.

Whatever.

In other news, I didn't find the idol and I am bummed about that. It would have been nice. And now there are rumours it is gone because Chase and Mikayla said it is gone. But I didn't see that in Mount Andouille when I was in there. So who knows.

I hope Rob is safe at tribal. He said Coach might remove himself or be the one voted out anyway. Kinda sucks. I liked Coach. But much like Elyse, he would have too many people against him down the line so I wouldn't be able to work with him anyway.

[Doctor Kenniff]

Had some really good chats with Chase and Shawna this afternoon about the whole pregame thing and their thoughts. They are definitely worried about it as well and want to do something to better our positions in the game. We just aren't sure what right now. We don't know what is coming next. Chase views the people on our tribe like this...

Kourt is a prominent figure of the pregame.
Judd is in the next tier of it and is definitely a part of it.
Eliza is a follower because she doesn't have anything else.

If we have to vote again he wants to have Wanda vote with us and force a tie. I am not sure I trust Wanda enough to be on the same side of a vote as her. So I don't like his plan. I guess we will see what is in store for us after tonight's vote. If we switch then we won't have to worry about it. If we don't then I need to see where Alexis stands and poke around Judd's state of mind without giving away anything about being against the rumoured pregame. I am still favoured by the people in it so if I can plan behind the scenes and not be seen as a huge schemer that is best for me right now.

Definitely feeling better about this new being on the same page as Shawna and Chase thing. They are totally a pair btw and aren't afraid of that being known. Kind of dumb. But maybe if Rob C feels comfortable teaming with me again for a F2 rematch LOL then we could perhaps team with Shawna and Chase for a F4 alliance. I'd obviously try and bring someone to F5 that would help me and Rob out though. But shhhh. And that is all only if Rob wants to team with me again. Anyways...just another update and some more thoughts.

[Doctor Kenniff]

Things could get pretty interesting if we have to vote again. I just had a chat with Judd and I think he might want to target Alexis. Or he was hoping I would. He was all like I don't know what your relationship with Alexis is after last season. Once I said I was over last season and had no ill feelings towards anyone from my season he dropped it pretty quick.

Shawna thinks if we had to vote again that Kourtney and gang would want Wanda out. We are going to test Kourtney if we have to vote again and see if she really is with Baci or if she argues against whatever boot myself, Shawna, Chase say.

But now I am finding myself in a weird position. I have deals with almost everyone on the tribe. So now I will be breaking my word if we do have to vote again. That was what I wanted to avoid in this game. Ugh. I even said that at the beginning of the game. I said that I don't want to align myself with everyone because that leads to me having to be dishonest and backstabbing someone. My past is haunting me. It is a dark shadow that follows me. I'm really not allied with everyone on the tribe though. I am not allies with Wanda. Sadly, as I've discussed...Shawna and Chase would want to keep her. And I need Shawna and Chase to start gaining some numbers in this game to take out some major threats. The other person I really don't consider myself allied with is Eliza but I told her I would not vote for her. I would be breaking my word if I do. But people have done that countless times to me. So I mean breaking my word to someone and sending them to the prejury might be a small price to pay for a long term investment.

I certainly don't want Judd or Alexis to go. The only other option is boot Kourtney which I would also consider. But that move sends a big statement to Syd and DD and I don't think we would want to make that bold a statement just yet. Just a subtle one we could brush off and be like well we weren't very close to Eliza.

The other thing I need to consider is if I decide to vote Eliza...(if that is what Shawna and Chase want)...I need to tell Judd or I lose his trust completely. I know this from playing with him in the past. Sooo I am in a tough spot here. Really hope we do not have to vote.