Post by Shawna Mitchell on Jun 24, 2013 20:55:38 GMT -5
Lastnight...was so long and I'm so tired. I was really going to try to win the challenge because I couldn't guarantee if I dropped I'd get on the tribe I wanted. As it shaped up, I thought tribe A looked best because I definitely didn't want to be on a tribe with the alliance of Rob C, Sean, Boston Rob, Candice and Carter. Colby was the only person who looked Shawna-friendly. When I saw Kourtney end up there I thought, oh wow she's screwed.
So, at about 5 1/2 hours into it, I was posting pretty well, I had a rythmn. post, post, update to see who fell off/what the tribes looked like. And when they were even there was no way I was chancing falling off. When there were 6 people on tribe A and 8 on tribe B I thought, well, this looks like good odds. I was toying with dropping, but not really wanting to stop just in case. But, just updating to see if anyone else fell kind of messed me up and I dropped. About half wanting to and half not wanting to.
So, when I saw I was on tribe A, I was very happy. When four people were left I was reallly hoping Sydney would end up on tribe A, for obvious reasons. I was praying for it. And then, she got stuck on tribe B. She has immunity, yes, but I think she may be screwed after this round if they lose.
So, onto me. Since, while I love Sydney, I care mostly about myself in this game. Go figure.
So I talk to DD about the vote and we would both like to vote out Alexis. Judd is talking to me, which is good. I'm not sure how much he wants to work with me, or for how long, but I do think we may have bonded enough for him to want to keep me around for a little while.
DD suggests bringing in Kim - we're talking about getting a majority voting group right away. Not shocked she wants Kim since I believe they are super close, although she says they're not that close. Whatever. I don't care at this point as long as I can be in some kind of a majority and not be vulnerable.
DD asks if we should include Chase and I said I thought he would be in to vote Alexis, but I also know Chase is very leary about the big group of pre-game friends who were on Gwad together. Except he likes and trusts Vee. But, I told him about our chat because I didn't want him not trusting me and we did end up adding him. So, five of us agree on Alexis. Kim was pretty quiet and I could tell it wasn't really what she wanted.
Everything just felt awkward and I thought, well, here I am on the tribe I wanted but, either way, I'm definitely outnumbered by big alliances on either tribe.
I'm hearing Wanda, Vee, Alexis are together. And I know Chase thinks he can work with Vee/Wanda. I don't trust Wanda at all but I do like Vee.
Then there's Miki, who is with all of the girls, I think, to some extent.
I went to bed, went to work today, and came online to a message from Judd telling me the vote is now Wanda.
The only people online are Vee, Miki & Alexis...so I start talking to Vee and Miki. I do like Vee but we haven't talked game at all yet. Miki is okay but she asks me who I want to vote for pretty quick into the conversation. I'm not going to bring up names to her, not knowing where she stands, so neither of us do. Just the basic, it's so hard, we want to keep the tribe strong, etc, etc.
Then Kim comes on and asks if I have heard anything about the vote since last night. I told her Judd said it changed to Wanda. She said it could be Ibe. That sucks because I did think he could be useful and I think he might feel vulnerable on this tribe. But, I'm not surprised. I wouldn't be surprised if I was the vote, though, or at least mentioned. Either because Kim or Judd have told Alexis I want her out, or just because I'm pretty much an outsider to most of this group.
DD comes on for a minute and tells me Alexis confronted her about wanting to vote her. DD thinks Vee heard about it and told her. Idk if it was from Kim, Judd...or Chase. I could see any or all of the above.
I do think Chase will use his prize after this TC and go over to tribe B. If I could persuade him to swap with Sydney that would be awesome, but I doubt he wants to do that. I am sure he wants to use it to vote her off. If not Sydney, then maybe Colby. If he switches, I just want him to send someone I like over here. I just have to be careful about what I say to him because I think he is already hearing stuff about me and last night I felt that he was wondering why I was chatting with DD, Kim and Judd. He even said he was surprised he wasn't mentioned as a possible boot. I said it was probably because DD feels semi-close to him from our original Baci tribe. That is true and it gives me an excuse for working with her. And, like I told him. I am stuck on this tribe if/when he decides to leave it so I need allies.
I don't know what's going to happen, and I don't feel secure at all, but hopefully I can maneuver myself into a safe position and last until either another swap (a good swap) or a merge. Either way, I feel like my allies are so few in the grand scheme or things. Plus, if I lose Sydney and Kourtney, which it seems like I will if these tribes stay put for a few rounds, that diminishes my options.
Hopefully tonight I'll get a better sense of what's really happening with this vote. If I can survive this round, I think this tribe will win challenges....which is never a bad thing.
So, at about 5 1/2 hours into it, I was posting pretty well, I had a rythmn. post, post, update to see who fell off/what the tribes looked like. And when they were even there was no way I was chancing falling off. When there were 6 people on tribe A and 8 on tribe B I thought, well, this looks like good odds. I was toying with dropping, but not really wanting to stop just in case. But, just updating to see if anyone else fell kind of messed me up and I dropped. About half wanting to and half not wanting to.
So, when I saw I was on tribe A, I was very happy. When four people were left I was reallly hoping Sydney would end up on tribe A, for obvious reasons. I was praying for it. And then, she got stuck on tribe B. She has immunity, yes, but I think she may be screwed after this round if they lose.
So, onto me. Since, while I love Sydney, I care mostly about myself in this game. Go figure.
So I talk to DD about the vote and we would both like to vote out Alexis. Judd is talking to me, which is good. I'm not sure how much he wants to work with me, or for how long, but I do think we may have bonded enough for him to want to keep me around for a little while.
DD suggests bringing in Kim - we're talking about getting a majority voting group right away. Not shocked she wants Kim since I believe they are super close, although she says they're not that close. Whatever. I don't care at this point as long as I can be in some kind of a majority and not be vulnerable.
DD asks if we should include Chase and I said I thought he would be in to vote Alexis, but I also know Chase is very leary about the big group of pre-game friends who were on Gwad together. Except he likes and trusts Vee. But, I told him about our chat because I didn't want him not trusting me and we did end up adding him. So, five of us agree on Alexis. Kim was pretty quiet and I could tell it wasn't really what she wanted.
Everything just felt awkward and I thought, well, here I am on the tribe I wanted but, either way, I'm definitely outnumbered by big alliances on either tribe.
I'm hearing Wanda, Vee, Alexis are together. And I know Chase thinks he can work with Vee/Wanda. I don't trust Wanda at all but I do like Vee.
Then there's Miki, who is with all of the girls, I think, to some extent.
I went to bed, went to work today, and came online to a message from Judd telling me the vote is now Wanda.
The only people online are Vee, Miki & Alexis...so I start talking to Vee and Miki. I do like Vee but we haven't talked game at all yet. Miki is okay but she asks me who I want to vote for pretty quick into the conversation. I'm not going to bring up names to her, not knowing where she stands, so neither of us do. Just the basic, it's so hard, we want to keep the tribe strong, etc, etc.
Then Kim comes on and asks if I have heard anything about the vote since last night. I told her Judd said it changed to Wanda. She said it could be Ibe. That sucks because I did think he could be useful and I think he might feel vulnerable on this tribe. But, I'm not surprised. I wouldn't be surprised if I was the vote, though, or at least mentioned. Either because Kim or Judd have told Alexis I want her out, or just because I'm pretty much an outsider to most of this group.
DD comes on for a minute and tells me Alexis confronted her about wanting to vote her. DD thinks Vee heard about it and told her. Idk if it was from Kim, Judd...or Chase. I could see any or all of the above.
I do think Chase will use his prize after this TC and go over to tribe B. If I could persuade him to swap with Sydney that would be awesome, but I doubt he wants to do that. I am sure he wants to use it to vote her off. If not Sydney, then maybe Colby. If he switches, I just want him to send someone I like over here. I just have to be careful about what I say to him because I think he is already hearing stuff about me and last night I felt that he was wondering why I was chatting with DD, Kim and Judd. He even said he was surprised he wasn't mentioned as a possible boot. I said it was probably because DD feels semi-close to him from our original Baci tribe. That is true and it gives me an excuse for working with her. And, like I told him. I am stuck on this tribe if/when he decides to leave it so I need allies.
I don't know what's going to happen, and I don't feel secure at all, but hopefully I can maneuver myself into a safe position and last until either another swap (a good swap) or a merge. Either way, I feel like my allies are so few in the grand scheme or things. Plus, if I lose Sydney and Kourtney, which it seems like I will if these tribes stay put for a few rounds, that diminishes my options.
Hopefully tonight I'll get a better sense of what's really happening with this vote. If I can survive this round, I think this tribe will win challenges....which is never a bad thing.
