Episode 9

[Shawna Mitchell]

DD threw this 100%

DDanielle
I feel like shadow is borderline asking me to throw We talked about the vote and I brought up Kim. Yes, I know it sounds really stupid but I just felt like testing her.

DDanielle
Shadow told
He wants Alexis or chase to go

DDanielle
Also obviously please don't say anything to syd lol


DDanielle
My first choice would be Alexis

Shawna Mitchell
idk i'd like alexis but you said kim wont vote her
and if wanda goes, why would she then?
why dont we just vote kim?

DDanielle
I would but I'm worried that someone would tell her

Shawna Mitchell
we dont have the numbers for that now
last round we didnt so why would we this round?

Yeah, well I know she's close to Kim but I just wanted to see what she would say.

DDanielle
I mean I'll admit she isn't my first choice and the idol
Ma

Shawna Mitchell
yeah i know

DDanielle
Makes it scary to try and vote her

Shawna Mitchell
look, i only tell you this because i trust you more than anyone else and i tell you everything
i know you're friends and i didnt really think you'd want to vote her, but just like you say chase needs to go sometime, so does kim

DDanielle
For the record, I didn't say chase has to go sometime, Sydney did.

Shawna Mitchell
sorry, i didnt mean pointedly "you said it"
just that it was said
and i get it, he does
but why would we now when he voted with us last time and would this time? He wanted to vote alexis just like you and i did last round
if it weren't for kim, we could've

DDanielle
Exactly. I have no interest in voting chase

But later...

DDanielle
also i want to cry
my internet went out
came back 2 mins late (
or rather i finished two minutes late once it came back

Shawna Mitchell
really?

DDanielle
yeah

She threw it. For Sydney. Maybe I'll be the vote if we lose. I'm really trying to act weak and that I only have DD.... but she could've warned Kim and now my name is on the chopping block.


I didn't think I could do 31 so I just figured it'd be better to challenge my opponent, hoping I'm up against someone weaker.

I just know this round is my turning point if we go to TC. I feel like Sydney never talks game to me, Kourtney never talks to me period, and DD has too many other friends. I need to make another move and if it kills me it kills me. I have to take the risk.

[Shawna Mitchell]

Kim threw. Who goes from 28 to 24? Ugh.

[Shawna Mitchell]

I guess I feel like explaining my convo w/ DD because it seems stupid to suggest Kim when I think DD is close to her. I also wanted to point out to DD that I feel like I've been kind of ex-communicated from game talk w/ Syd/Kourtney because I want DD to feel like I TELL HER EVERYTHING. It's a risk and it may be dumb but I just want her to want to feel I am with her 100% and she doesn't want to lose someone who feels DD is her only ally.

Yeah, it could backfire, but I just feel that if she thinks I trust her over everyone, and am open/honest, why would she let that go? I wouldn't.

But, if we lose I will be stepping outside my comfort zone and I want DD to think I've surrendered to her completely....I am, of course, working under the impression that DD hasn't heard anything shady about me up to this point...this could either make me or break me in this game.

[Cao Boi]

So why exactly do you want DD to think that? Are you worried for you may go this round otherwise?

[Shawna Mitchell]

Because DD has been sharing stuff with me about Sydney and I feel like if I am sharing with her and she thinks I am vulnerable she will trust me that much more.

I could have just put a nail in my coffin but I felt like telling her things which make me seem open/naked would make her trust me more.

I guess to answer your question, the fact that Sydney wants Chase out feels like a direct attack on me. I know people feel Chase and I are close and they are concerned about that connection. Sydney wants only people who are loyal to her in the game and getting Chase out would make her feel more comfortable.

I'm banking on DD wanting to know that I trust her with everything.

Like I said, it could just be stupid and come back to haunt me but I took a risk.

[Shawna Mitchell]

lol people are throwing and it makes me nervous since so far it's DD, Kim & Judd

Judd Sergeant
My bet was 22 minutes
I did it in 23.

Shawna Mitchell
aw

Judd Sergeant
It literally changed like RIGHT when I posted my final one.
I was pissed!

Who fucking bets that low? Someone who's throwing...

[Cao Boi]

Ahh ok. So when you said earlier that you want to make a move do you know what exactly yet?

[Shawna Mitchell]

Cai Boi I love you for asking this...I seriously love you...because of the attention lol

If people are throwing I have to assume it's because of Sydney's wishes to get Chase out...so I've been really working on my relationship with Vee and I'm hoping that if it's true Vee/Alexis/Wanda are together, they would be up for a blindside.

IDK for sure because Vee also bet ridiculously low. Maybe I'm reading too much into this and my tribe is just retarded..

Sorry to offend anyone, it's just a saying.

[Shawna Mitchell]

Well, I believe the blindside is happening...I'm going to catch hell for this...but what's a Survivor game without any risks? It's become more and more apparent I am a non-essential member to Sydney/Kourtney for a while now.

I love DD but she doesn't tell me/trust me 100% either. She is holding a lot back from me.

I detest that people were asked to throw this but, more importantly, I have to wonder about the reason when I don't think Sydney/Kourtney were in any danger over there. But, was all this to vote out Wanda? It seems more likely it was to vote out Chase...but some things about that don't add up, either.

Bottom line, DD/Judd are going to be pissed. Sydney/Kourtney are going to be pissed. But, I'm not spending the rest of this game following their orders. I actually like Judd and worked to get the vote on Kim and not him. I just need to have a cover story/explanation for this when the shit hits the fan.

So, Vee, Alexis, Wanda, Chase and I are voting Kim. If they all follow through, and Kim doesn't play her idol, we're having ourselves a blindside tonight.

[Shawna Mitchell]

Jul 1, 2013 23:00:34 GMT -5 Host Lex said:

A vote split three ways and a massive blindside is a reminder that no one in this game is ever safe.

So true!

[Shawna Mitchell]

Well, it happened. Kim is gone and that was a big deficit in the BFF Alliance. I do realize there is still a strong trio in Vee/Alexis/Wanda but I had to take the risk. If not, Wanda would have left this round and we would've thrown it again (if this next challenge is still with the same tribes...too hard to tell with these evil hosts), and then Chase would be next.

It's giving a lot of power to them but it's also splitting up sides a bit. Vee has pissed some people off. She could make her way into their good graces, sure...but I felt I had a better chance if I befriended/worked with a few of that group who felt they weren't in the center. Kim definitely was.

DD is telling me she's fine and understands but I have to be concerned that she's just feeling vulnerable and will get me out because of this. I still don't want to lose her and I'll figure this out as I go along, but I am walking a tightrope now. More than I ever was before. I need to try to keep this balance and not fall into the fire.

I'll figure it out as I go along but, for now, at least I don't think I would be leaving at next TC (on THIS tribe) and I still have some options looking forward to a merge.

I have Chase (who has Vee), I have DD (who may want to kill me but she's being really understanding for now), I have Colby on the other side who I feel I can trust, and I do feel that Kim leaving tonight may cause a divide which can help me get further.

I still feel disconnected from Syd/Kourt and I think they are probably not happy with me, and I do still have concerns about the trio I just helped, not to mention Sean who "thanked" Chase for saving Alexis. Thanks for the extra red flag, Sean.

So, my goal right now is to be important to others' games but to plan and play for my own.