11 [makes me that much wiser]

[DD]

I can't believe that she's gone. I hate that the round she left, I lied to her. I hate round 10 with a burning passion. I threw a challenge, lied to Shawna, Kim and Miki, lost Kim, Alexis stayed and I got burned by Vecepia. I guess the plastics is over though... Jesus that alliance was like an abusive marriage!

I miss Kim so much already. She's a great ally and the game won't be the same without her. I have a bit of warrior blood flowing through my veins now, seeing as I am the last person standing from season 1! I'll have to run the numbers on the other seasons later, but Season 5 still scares the shit out of me! Especially Vecepia, her idol, and Alexis. Ready to kill them!

Going into the next challenge, I am definitely not throwing. After a massive blindside of my final 2 ally, I am in no position to be giving away immunity if I have any control over earning it. Going into the next vote, I will be looking to take out Vecepia, Wanda or Alexis. Vee's idol is going to make it tricky, but the thing needs to be flushed regardless. If it works out that I can get rid of the idol and one of them in one round, great, but I won't hold my breath. At this point I'm just looking to survive with people I can trust. I'd hate to see Judd or Miki go next, but they are kind of vulnerable at this point.

Going forward in the game, I finally feel free. I did feel a bit bounded by Kim. We just connected with so many people in the game, and definitely not the same ones. As the last vote for Kim stated, she needed to stop compromising, and that's really why she left. She was too preoccupied making too many people happy (including myself) and she forgot to protect herself. Going forward, I'm going to need to heed these warnings. I can't let myself get out yet.

Right now, I'm looking to make it as far as I can with the Baci 6. It's not the most stable alliance in and of itself, but it is a solid voting block and I feel like I'm really well-connected within the alliance. I also have a great relationship with Mikayla, Alex and Judd, and I am okay with ditching Baci relationships to work with these people, and vice-versa.

If we were to go to tribal in this tribe, this round, I would definitely try and gun for one of Vee, Wanda or Alexis. The idol scares me, but I don't want any of the other four to go. I can't play in fear of the idol, but it's tough. I would hate to be idoled out of all-stars - but I'm not sure who I'd gun for out of the three. There are pros and cons to taking out each.

Regardless, I'm ready to power through this game. These people don't know what's coming!

[DD]

alliances



The Baci girls still stand strong! I think the four of us will always have a connection in this game. I plan on working with them until the very end if possible, but as anyone can see from last round, things change on a dime in this game. So while I am giving them my loyalty, I realize that at any time they can be taken from me, and I'll need to be ready to make no plans to deal with this loss.



I'm not sure how many people know how close Judd and I are. It'd be extremely hard to vote him out of this game, but the fewer people that, the better. With Kim gone, it only brings Judd closer to me. I feel like Judd is someone I would not mind sitting next to at the end of this game.



Love this girl! She was quick to blame me for Kim's departure, but I think she shortly thereafter knew it was really Vecepia's disloyalty that caused her to leave. I know she's upset that I voted for Alexis after begging to vote Wanda, but I think she is also smart enough to know that we need to band together now more than ever if we're going to make it through this game. Unfortunately, Miki is liked a lot and I don't know if I can bring her to the end. But yesterday we confirmed that we'd be in the finals regardless of Kim being in the game. If I have to make a final 3 with her and Candice, and subsequently break it, I will.



People also don't know how close I am with Alex, which is great. We've been friends for a long time and I wouldn't mind going to the end of this game with him. He's a great guy but not very dedicated. He's loyal, but I don't think people would give him the win. I really do think I can fully trust him going deep into this game.



There is definitely chemistry with old Baci. While the Baci girls are the core of this tribe, I do have great relationships with Chase and Sean as well. Chase and I have history from past games and have always been friendly toward each other. Sean and I made a final 2 alliance early on in this game, and I could still potentially honor that. Sean and I haven't chatted a ton, so if he's doubting the alliance's existence then that's my fault. But I am hoping to talk to him more in coming rounds so I have him secured for merge. That's definitely coming soon.

relationships



Easily my most favorite duo that I'm not aligned with is Mary and Carter. They're real chill folk but I'm not sure how much I can work with them in this game. They've done a great job of making it thus far, so I have no doubt they'll be here in the future. Going to try and work with them if possible!



Oh men. I really like Colby but he knows that I have had other plans in this game. I'm not sure that he'll work with me, but I feel like I can trust his word when he does give it to me. Hopefully he'll be good for a few votes but I won't be surprised if not.



Eh, I don't think she likes me. I do think she can be controlled by Mikayla though, and if so then yay. I would still make an alliance with her but I feel like she wouldn't be loyal. She's so off-putting.

[DD]

Yay for immunity! Feels so good to have made the final 15 Final 15 means there are 20 people voted off, which is a huge accomplishment. I really don't want to merge next round, because I know that we are the stronger tribe and there are so many people on their tribe that I don't care for. Plus, sending their tribe to TC with only 7 members will surely cause some damage... should be fun!

It's crazy how the time shifts between rounds. Round 10 lasted forever, because we agreed to throw the challenge, so I felt like tribal council started before the challenge did. On top of that the challenge was 48 hours, so it was like a 4-day round. This round was like 8 hours long, because I wasn't around at all today, and the challenge is over and I'm immune. I probably won't be on tomorrow much after 5, but I don't think I'll miss out on much because of the holidays.

I guess just a little thing to dish on... I think I pissed off Sydney! Basically the challenge was winding, down, and I'm just so tired that I wasn't thinking. This happened:

DD 4:47 am
u wanna jump on my stone
MrShadzcat 4:48 am
f off

Oops! I really didn't mean for it to be mean, or to rub anything in or anything. Like I meant no harm by it but as soon as I sent it I knew that I fucked up. Sydney is kind of sensitive as is, and everyone is on edge when they lose immunity. Plus, it was just mean spirited. Unfortunately I just don't even want to bring it up again. I really need to watch for things like that. I doubt Sydney would like, vote me out over it, but it just isn't the kind of social game I want to be portraying. So yeah... I always need to be checking myself!

Yay for round 12 Will report if I hear anything about Kraken's TC, but I'm not going to do any snooping. I'm predicting Mary goes.