Episode 16

[Shawna Mitchell]

Okay THIS is the craziest TC so far! BY FAR!! I am definitely scared I'm going this week. Candice is trying to drum up votes for me and I know she has some. I trust maybe 4 or 5 people not to vote me, some are iffy and some I am sure are voting me.

It's so hard because everyone gets two votes so the math makes it tricky here. I have been asked to vote Chase, Vee, Colby.. um Kourtney. And the only two people I want to vote for are Judd and Sean. Or maybe Alex. This doesn't include people who can't be voted for like Candice and Sydney, lol.

So this is who I believe is being honest with me:

Colby
Danielle
Kim
Kourtney
Candice (lol)

This is who I hope is being honest but have some doubt about:

Miki
Chase
Sydney

This is who I can't trust:

Judd
Sean
Alex

This is who I haven't talked to:

Vee


So, I guess I'll just start with the IC. I was doing pretty well in practice and thought I would be able to at least past DD's time, and she had the necklace from the auction, anyway. But, flood control took me down when I made my 2 attempts so, I didn't win. I was thinking maybe, since DD won, she would use the necklace and give me Immunity. But, she posted right away she was keeping it and then I heard Candice played the necklace. I was really surprised DD gave it back to her this round and especially upset when that fueled Candice enough that she felt she could campaign for me hardcore. And she did.

So last night I was hearing all about the votes piling up against me. Sydney told me about the plan to vote Chase/Vee to get rid of the idol and one of them (she hopes Chase), and that the other person would be someone like Colby or Sean. She was pretty quiet, though, and then went to bed. So, I thought she was probably just not caring that I would be the vote, or voting me. She usually has that blase attitude when she's immune and I think she would like me gone, even though she probably wants to act all loyal and not vote me herself.

Colby told me everything Candice was telling him and so I was hearing votes for me would be Candice, Judd, Sean, Miki. I can't remember if I heard Alex but I just assumed that he would vote me if Judd and Sean were.

Judd told me that Candice was targeting me but said he was trying to get the vote off of me. That was total BS and DD confirmed that, as well.

Miki heard that she was mentioned as a vote for me and told me it wasn't true, that she was just humoring Candice. I am 50/50 on that one, I guess.

Judd also told me Miki told him that DD was throwing his name under the bus so I worried he might be paranoid enough to use the HII if he still has it.

I told Judd I was voting Chase and told Chase I said that but it's not true.

Kim was at a night club and not talking much. DD fell asleep. I went to bed.

This morning, Sydney told me she was getting people to change to Colby instead of me. I told her I didn't want to vote Colby (which is true, I'm not voting him), but then she just kept saying then idk what to do, we need the votes off of you. So, finally I just said I would so that she would stop. She said I could vote Vee/Colby.

I'll just let her think whatever she wants because one of my votes is definitely Judd. The other I'm not sure about until I figure out what I think the numbers will be.

I talked to Sean and tried to make peace. Part of this was to let him know I'm not coming after him and get him not to vote me. Well, okay, all of it was. I don't really think it worked but it actually might have. Both Sydney and Kim told me he's voting Colby.

Then, just cause, I talked to Candice. I just wanted to ask her why she wanted to vote me and see what she said. It served no purpose but to put her on the spot. She was a bitch but pretty upfront, I guess.

Shawna Mitchell
Hey

Candice
Hey!

Shawna Mitchell
Hi
So, I just wanted to ask you something

Candice
Oh, yeah?

Shawna Mitchell
Im just curious as to why you want me out so bad? Like what did I do to you lol?
was it the round I didnt vote you out when you were a target? :-P

Candice
I mean, it's not really personal but you and I aren't like, really playing together here. With the amount of value I see our games having to each other there's no reason you wouldn't vote me later

Shawna Mitchell
I just wondered if there was anything specific
cause if I leave I'd just like to know
i figured i may as well ask

Candice
Are you surprised I'm going after you?

Shawna Mitchell
maybe just about how hard

Candice
I'm going hard bc I don't have that much to lose at this moment
I can't go anywhere

Shawna Mitchell
lol ok
well i have to go, nice chatting

Candice
Okay
Later

The crazy thing is there are so many different targets coming out that it's scary as to what will happen.

So, I was thinking, I'll just vote Judd/Chase since Chase is probably going anyway and, if he is, I want him to have more votes than I do. It feels kind of douchey but, the way he's been acting toward me, I really go back and forth on whether he'd just vote me out anyway. I sent Colby a PM saying I'm probably voting Judd/Chase.

But...I don't want to do that. I feel like such a jerk voting an ally to save myself. But, then again, he threw me under the bus last round by telling people I was targeting Alex. I told him Alex when he asked me who I wanted to vote for, but I never thought he'd spread that around. I also heard Wanda and Colby said I was trying to organize an Alex vote but the only thing I said to them was that Chase told me he's voting Alex. So, then I thought, well...I guess I just did the same thing to Chase that I accused him of doing to me.

Last night, when I went to bed, I was resigned to leaving this round. At this point, I feel I could actually survive and that anything could happen. Or, I could still go. I want to stay but I don't want to stay because I was a spineless, fearful douchebag.

I always think I can play cutthroat and just take out anyone if it furthers my own game, but that is only if I want that person out, anyway.

I might just vote Vee since she hasn't spoken to me, and I told Sydney I'd vote her, anyway.

All I know for sure is I'm voting Judd. I'm still torn over the second vote. Very torn.

[Shawna Mitchell]

So, as of now, Kim, Miki and Chase want to vote Kourtney which I would be okay with since she is just Sydney's lapdog anyway.

DD doesn't want to vote Kourtney, understandably. She is saying Judd won't waste the HII so we could vote Sean. I'd be good with that.

Colby isn't around but I've sent him a couple of PMs. I still haven't seen/talked to Vee.

I'm thinking the target may have dropped off me a little, but not positive about that. I'd like to save Colby, Chase and me, so if voting Kourtney does that, great. Or if everyone will vote Sean and Judd doesn't use the HII, great.

Sydney did tell me she might talk to Judd and have him pass it to her for safe-keeping, and then we could just vote Sean. I don't see why he'd do that, though. If he was paranoid about being voted for, he'd just use it. If he's just a little paranoid, maybe he'd pass it, idk.

I certainly don't want Sydney to have an idol after we all screw her in the vote...