Round 19 Confessional

[Doctor Kenniff]

Wow another live challenge. I'm not going to have any time to write confessionals if the rounds are going by this quickly!

Last night was another scary round for me because I was the target again. I really hate playing on the defensive. Because if you make one wrong move then you are sent packing. Like I can't just switch to playing offense because then someone will rat me out and the people who are trusting me will vote me out.

Vee and Miki offered me a F3 and I accepted. But I really just want to get myself/Alex or myself/Candice to the F2. I do think it is going to be a F3 though, so the ideal ending would be myself/Alex/Candice F3.

As much as I love Sydney, I can't beat her so I can't sit next to her.

But I also don't want to sit next to Miki/Vee because they're playing really good games...especially Miki. I'm kind of being forced into that F3 right now though because I need these people to have my back so I can't go badmouthing them and targeting them. But the problem with playing defensively is you don't get the credit at the end and I'm really worried about that if I do make it to the end.

I've been forced this hand though. No one wanting to talk to me. No one trusting me. Voting against me time and time again. What am I really supposed to do?

I am playing the hand I've been dealt. Might not be making any "big moves" but I'm a holder of secrets and will unleash them as I see fit. I don't need to be making a big move right now. But I definitely wish people would start talking to me again so they understand I am playing the game.

I think I'm just going to outright go asking Shawna and Chase if they'll vote out Kim this round and see what my alliance thinks when they hear that I've gone to those two and asked them to vote out Kim. At least if I talk to them with a target then they can see I'm not just being used or going along for the ride.

[Doctor Kenniff]

Chase came crawling back. Potential for a future alliance named Stray Dogs to be formed between myself/him/Alex?

[Doctor Kenniff]

So I just want to state that I am not naive that Candice has probably been offered something. I just don't know what and I don't want to approach her and ask because I don't need her going to Vee and Miki and solidifying her spot as the one they want to take with them.

Candice said to me that Sydney will win in the end for sure so I know she does not want to go to the end with Sydney. I wonder if she wants me there in any capacity. I would think that she will mention it if she does. I need to make sure she does not blindside Sydney because of the idol. We can use Sydney and get rid of her at F5 or F4. Hope Candice knows that.

Chase is funny because he has unreal expectations and expects things to happen. You gotta be more patient than he is being. The game is not just about making moves. See Danielle's exit to see why. It is about well timed moves. I want him to stick around so maybe at F8 or F7 we can do something depending what everyone else is thinking. I will make my appropriate moves then.

[Doctor Kenniff]

Oh and I'll push for Shawna to go this round because I asked her if she would vote Kim and she flat out said no. Okay then. You can go instead...